Ode to Chiseled Faces and Beautiful Eyes

I once told a friend that if ever I was going to have cosmetic surgery done on my face, I would get a square jaw. My friend replied that if I did that, I would look like a lesbian boxer, on account of my pretty eyes. I had a good laugh at that, but I was also kind of disappointed, because I have always wanted a more angular face. Admittedly, I already have a good one, as I had also been blessed with a tall nose, high forehead, and full lips. And I guess I can't really complain about having an oval-shaped face. But one look at a male model's face and my confidence gets torn to shreds. I get so envious over how masculine they look with their jaws popping out of their necks, guaranteeing that their chins will never disappear into their necks and that they will never get wattles and double chins when they age. But models back then almost always posed with steely looks in their eyes, the kind where the eyes look like little triangles, which made me believe that my friend was probably correct in his assessment. 

But it looks like pretty eyes and chiseled looks aren't such a bad match after all. Hollywood certainly has come around to it, with doe-eyed hunks getting more mileage than the eagle-eyed boys of decades past. The latest Superman, Henry Cavill, is one fine example. Did you see those eyelashes? They really drew you in, and gave him a dreamy, almost feminine gaze. But the rest of his face was all angles and scruff. He even had slightly crooked teeth! But rather than take away from his beauty, the contrast between his eyes and his face served to make him look more interesting and approachable. It's like, you know he's a tough beast, but he can cuddle. And it's wonderful that he has a gorgeous body to boot! (Actually, it's a bit too big for my taste, but I'm not complaining if those muscles land on my bed someday!) If he were a steamed fish, I wouldn't know if I'd have the head or the tail.

Another example (who I've been obsessing over lately) is Jamie Dornan, the huntsman/sheriff in Once Upon a Time. I'd have KILLED that Evil Queen Regina for his heart, and then make like her and turn him into my personal sex slave. I can't blame her at all for not killing the huntsman when he failed to kill Snow White. It would've been a waste. 

But going back to my point, I'd say Jamie Dornan was perfectly cast as a huntsman with a heart, because his eyes really give the vibe of being a loving soul in a tough exterior. 

I'll just throw in Matt Bomer here because he matches the set. He's gay, and I haven't seen him much in anything, but he is gorgeous. I drown in those eyes!

So, I guess I will have that surgery after all. Heheh.

That's One Way to Make Psy Palatable

Aw fuck. Did you see that? That's a sexy-as-fuck guy named Rene Mayo dancing to Psy's Gentleman. Riding on a pop phenomenon by posting a video on YouTube really is just crass fame-mongering, but this guy sure makes it look delicious. And I love how he upped the ante by doing it in nothing but a skimpy pair of shorts. Underwear--or nothing! would be so much better with this guy, but hey, there are rules of decency to follow on the Internet, and this guy's already cutting it real close, isn't he? Because of this video, I now have a new dream. Someday, I'm gonna hire a guy who looks like Rene just to dance Gentleman for me naked. I wouldn't care if it breaks his hips eventually. That would be his job, so he better do it if he wants cash stuffed up his crack, nyahaha.

A Gay Football Player, Yay!

I'm not really into football--just the players, heheh. Anyway, it's exciting to hear that there's finally a out gay football player out there trying out for the NFL. And the better news is that he's gorgeous. He looks exactly like those jocks you see in your favorite sports-themed gay porn videos.

Of course, I don't expect Alan Gendreau to turn the NFL locker rooms into gay orgy dens where he would get banged out by husky down-low football superstars--that would actually be kind of a setback for the gay movement's attempt to make gays mainstream, wouldn't it? But if there's any gay person I would like to see get into a high-profile position, that would be Mr. Grendreau. Someone like him can really change the way people see gay people, demolish stereotypes, become an inspiration to others, aside from being a great person to fantasize about in private. I wish him the best of luck, and I hope someday he'd be open to posing in the buff like the straight football stars :)

My Ideal Asian Man

In general, I don't have a specific type of man that I like. Twinks, jocks, hunks, bears, daddies, grandpas, executives, bikers, men in uniform--they all appeal to me, especially when it comes to foreigners. To me, it's the specifics that matter: a kind, masculine face, masculine demeanor, not too out of shape, bottom, submissive, friendly disposition. I guess in that respect, my tastes are pretty generic. Who doesn't want a guy with all those qualities? 

But when it comes to Asian men, there is a very specific list of physical attributes that I find attractive. I guess sometimes this makes it difficult for me to find an Asian partner because I have this set of preferences, among other restrictions. Of course, there have been many times when I've thrown the proverbial rule book out the window to get some--like, when I get extra horny on a full moon, heheh. But if you ask me what type of Asian man I would give an arm and a leg to bed, I would have a very clear answer for you.

I've probably covered this ground before, in some other post. In any case, I'll say it again: The biggest deal breaker for me when it comes to Asian men is the face. I like a handsome face, but I get intimidated by very pretty men. I also don't like it when a guy looks to feminine. I guess I'm averse to it because I have that type of face. It's annoying, although it's not so bad. In addition, a too Western face sort of makes me want to keep my distance. I think that guys who have pretty faces can't help but be aware of their attractiveness, and because of the droves of faggots who fall for this type of guy, they tend to have a shield up, so it's pretty difficult to get through to them.

My ideal Asian man has a Southeast Asian face but with a Western nose and a strong jaw. He can pass for a blue collar worker, but smart-looking. He has a tanned complexion.

Body-wise, I'm sure I'm not in the minority in wanting a guy who is fit. But I'm not that attracted to very buff guys. I'm more attracted to lean men who only have a bit of muscle. Someone who looks like he prefers to move around than lift weights. But I do love a good set of shoulders. That's another frustration I have with my body, so my ideal Asian man has to have well-formed, wide shoulders.

Height is a tricky issue for me. In bed, I prefer to have someone who's around my height. But a tall guy is not a problem, and he's definitely good to look at. I guess more than height, I'm looking for proportion. I like my ideal Asian man to have long limbs and torso, such that he looks tall even when he's actually not. 

Although I'm top, I want my ideal Asian man to have a substantial package. Nothing huge, but something that doesn't look puny in relation to the rest of his body. It's nice to have a good-sized cock to play with sometimes. Also, while I have no problem with dark dicks and butt holes, I get really turned on by pale, spotless genitalia and butt holes.

I've been fortunate to have met a couple of guys who fit the mold of my ideal Asian man. Funny thing, though, is that I did not end up in a relationship with them, for one reason or another. But one thing's for sure: I really, really, really enjoyed having sex with those guys. I just hope there'd be more of these guys in my future, whether as a fuck buddy or something more serious.

By the way, the reason I made this post is because I found gifs of my ideal Asian man. I don't know who he is, but he's been on my mind a lot lately. I'm hoping there are gay sex pictures of him out there somewhere. And it would really make my day if I could find even just one image of him being fucked.

Anyway, here's my ideal Asian man for your enjoyment.

Those undies sure can't contain him.

Yup, open up wide like that.

He has a lovely... smile :)

I'd love to see him in see-through underwear.

I really love the back of this guy, among other things.

The Jesse Williams Lookalike in My Building

I used to not care much about dark-skinned men. I guess it's a cultural thing. In the Philippines, fair skin is the ideal. It evokes caucasian heritage, and by extension, wealth and social power. I have to admit that there was a time when I aspired to have fair skin like my mother, and my exploits, while somewhat successful, have likely given me the skin problems that I suffer today. (The said problems aren't terrible at all, just some sun sensitivity, dryness during certain weather, and bouts of painful flaking. They're annoying enough to make me regret not being comfortable with the lovely skin color I inherited from my father.) Nowadays, I've come to appreciate my color, because now I know how caucasian people actually find my coloring attractive, and fashions have become more forgiving to asian skin tones. Also, with the advent of metrosexual men, aka the modern dandy, fair skinned men have come to be perceived as vain, high-maintenance, and effeminate, which are characteristics that I don't appreciate. I've come to appreciate the beauty of dark men, and I definitely enjoy watching interracial porn where the colored men top the caucasians.

Which leads me to today's topic. In my apartment building, there's this guy I fancy. He's one of the helpers in the rice store at the ground floor of my building. He has a gorgeous face, beautiful abs, and skin that's the color of coffee with just a drop of cream. My bf doesn't care much for him, especially since he's a mere laborer, but I've fancied him ever since I first saw him. Yesterday, he was in my apartment delivering a tank of gas for the stove. I really wanted to lock him in the house, tear off his clothes, and fuck him while giving him a bath--because, you know, he's sweaty--but I settled with giving him a tip for the delivery. That's the second time I've tipped him for carrying stuff. The other time, it was for carrying a drawer up to my apartment. The thing is, he is the only guy I have ever tipped. In my head, I'm paying him for sex, but the real-life scenario is quite close, since I'm wet in the pants all the same just being in the same room with him.

You're probably thinking this is some sort of blue-collar worker fetish. I promise you, it's not. The deal with this guy is that he actually looks almost exactly like Jesse Williams, from Grey's Anatomy and Sisters of the Travelling Pants. 

If you had a guy who looks like that carrying a tank of gas into your apartment, you'd want to work him in some other way too, wouldn't you?

Vintage Porn

I've been driving myself crazy these past few days because I've been stopping myself from masturbating. This is going to be gross, but it was out of necessity. Due to the fact that I haven't had sex at all for the past month, due to the lack of decent sex partners (fuck!), I've been wanking far too much. And that can cause problems, especially if you're hairy down there like I am. Anyway, long story short, I developed folliculitis, and right now, I am waiting for the wounds on my dick to heal.

Which, of course, doesn't mean that I have in any way reduced my consumption of pornography. I can't help it, I must have an addiction. Other than actually having sex, I enjoy seeing beautiful men get laid. And lately, I've come to appreciate the fun of just seeing a beautiful man naked--or maybe that's just my horniness going on overdrive, because normally, pictures of naked men posing don't do anything for me.

Which brings me to today's topic, vintage porn. I got the idea from a video I saw the other day of Joe Dallesandro getting fucked. Who's Joe Dallesandro? He was one of Andy Warhol's most popular actors. He was sexy as hell, and he loved showing off his naked body. He was also bisexual, although I think in Warhol's films, he only fucked females. Anyway, if you want to know the rest of his story, just look him up in Google. I need to get this blog entry going.

Anyway, here's Joe.

Incredible, isn't he? I just love how he seems so comfortable in his own skin, and how he makes sex seem so uncomplicated. Of course, I guess it helps that he looks like this. Nobody's going to turn down a boy who looks like that! I'm so envious of Warhol! How he must have really taken his fill of this guy.

One man from the seventies that has got my attention is Peter Hinwood, aka Rocky in the Rocky Horror Picture Show. He looked really stupid in the film. He wasn't a natural in front of the camera like Joe, but who cares? I adore him for spending an entire movie running around in gold lame skivvies and donning lace panties, corset, mesh stockings and high heels later on. And we're lucky to have his naked pics lying around on the Internet. Don't you just love the Internet?

By the way, this man is still hot as fuck today. I would totally bang him.

I guess you could consider the 90s vintage now, since technically, it's last century. These next two guys introduced me to gay porn. It seems that Bel Ami was the first gay porn outfit to go online, since I remember it was the only source of gay porn videos I could find on the Internet back then. Anyway, the first guy who really rocked my world was Ion Davidov. One of the first gay videos I ever saw featured him and Johann Paulik. The scene was in a barn. Ion and Johann were wearing cowboy hats and flannel shirts, and they were rolling around in the hay. It was way intense for my 12-year-old brain, and I cherish that moment to this day.

I am so sad that I can't find a better pic of this guy now. One that shows off his dick in full glory. I used to have tons of pics of this guy, now degrading away in useless floppy discs. I know he was big back in his day, but somehow, Johann is better-remembered on the Internet than he is, and also this next guy.

Lukas Ridgeston has an amazing body and incredibly gorgeous eyes. I drown in those eyes, in my dreams of fucking him (and him fucking me, heheh). But I only came to appreciate Lukas later on, actually, after Ion faded away into obscurity. Sometime ago, I heard that a cast of his dick had been made and somebody was selling dildos made from that cast. I guess I'd love to have one, but I think I would enjoy the real thing more. Those eyes really sell the package. In more recent news, I heard that Lukas has gone back to making porn again after taking a long break from acting. He still looks awesome--no, make that hotter than ever, although I have a sentimental affection for the younger Lukas. Shit, get me a time machine and let's have a threeway!

Of course, there are a whole bunch of other men from the past who blow my mind. Like James Dean. I read somewhere that he was actually a horny gay bastard, but he was so conflicted. But I would say the guys I featured here are timeless beauties. They never fail to turn me on, although with my condition right now, I really should behave a little. 

Servitude

This is the life. Having a sexy naked man serving you, attending to your every need. I'm sure I'm not alone or even in the minority in wanting to have someone like this in my life, although in my case, I'm really looking for a sexy servant, not someone to love who just happens to like taking care of people.

It also goes without saying that I would love to have a sexy servant who will take care of my sexual needs. Even a man like me, who loves variety, likes to have one person who can be counted on to give you sexual relief when everybody else is not available. It's not easy finding somebody like that, especially when you're not employing them. I'm thinking you really have to have the money to have that kind of lifestyle.

But you know what? I'm kind of conflicted about the idea of having a slave. Thing is, it's no problem if the slave is really submissive and puts your needs above everything else. But slaves are people too. They have needs, connections, issues. On one hand, I respect that, and maybe sometimes, I would like my slave to act like a friend and keep me company and have an intelligent conversation with. There's also that part of me that doesn't want to take care of another person, so I would appreciate it if the slave took care of his business on his own. But on the other hand, I don't want to deal with a "person". I just want the slave to shut up and take it like a man. I just want the slave to not get in the way and just come out when he's needed. And I don't want to have to track him down and make arrangements with him all the time. He just has to be ready.

I have never had a real slave before, so I don't know the dynamics of the relationship and whether it would be really possible for a man in my situation to have everything that he is looking for in a slave. It's a great fantasy, as far as I know. Maybe later, when it is finally possible for me to commit to that lifestyle, I would know.